You always do this.

Seeing your car other than where you work is a weird reality.

Emotional cheating, is cheating nonetheless…

Really dude.. Seriously?

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You asked me about word association between clouds and trees. You didn’t like my answers and told me that’s why you couldn’t be with me. I know I’m gonna see you soon.. It’s always a process, the same damn process.

I can’t keep doing this to myself.

Maybe it’s just the weather.. But the ache in my bones is back again. It’s not as harsh as it use to be, more like pulsating now. It comes and goes, just to remind me that it’s never really gone, it’ll never be gone. It’s gotten better though, not by much, but a little progress is progress nonetheless. I still have dreams, and flashbacks, and then my chest feels heavy for a few days, but it goes away. Ill try to tell myself it was a fluke, but it wasn’t.. I’m not that great of a liar, never have been, especially to myself. I guess all that matters is, is that it’s just an inside pain, no one has to see it, I can keep it to myself. It doesn’t have to affect me, unless I let it, and it doesn’t have to affect what’s going in currently. I have to remind myself that not everything is going to end up like the picture in my head, not everything is going to be how I want, because it’s not always what someone else wants. Eventually it’ll be okay, and it will continue to get better.